Monday, February 7, 2011

A (Painful) Waiting Game

Hey everyone! Hope your weekend was as lovely as you are J. After starting out my Monday morning with a few minutes of yoga, I was ready to start the day!
This post isn’t as bad as it sounds, trust me! But last night I experienced hunger pains that I haven’t felt in so long.
I had dinner a little later than usual, but I wasn’t starving, just a little bit hungry. I had a vegan Asian noodle bowl, a hot drink made with Soytein cappuccino protein powder and unsweetened cocoa powder and a little Truvia, and a big Honeycrisp apple. Yum! It was a normal-sized dinner for me, but an hour later, I was starving! Usually after a dinner like that, I wouldn’t get hungry til about two hours later, and that’s when I’d have my snack. Since I had had dinner late, I ended up having my snack around the usual time. I was so hungry that I scarfed down that Kashi Trail Mix bar.
Surprisingly, I was just as starving after I ate the bar. My ED thoughts started kicking in, but I shoved them aside. I promised myself that if I was still really hungry in another half an hour, I would eat another snack! Yes, I know, I can’t believe I said that. Normally, I would just deal with the hunger pains so I could shut ED up.
Half an hour came and went and…I was still as starving as before. So I poured myself a bowl of Whole Foods Honey & Oats cereal (kinda like Honey Bunches of Oats). I did measure it out to be the recommended serving size, but…I ate not one, but TWO nighttime snacks! I was so so so proud of myself for basically saying “Screw you, ED. I’m hungry, so I’m gonna eat!”
Sorry if I sound like I’m bragging, but last night was a huge slap in the face to ED. And it felt so good to respect my body’s cues. Take that, ED!
My cute lil cereal bowl (without cereal in it, of course!)


  1. Whoo!!! Go you for listening to that body of yours!!! You really do deserve to be proud of yourself for eating despite ED's comments.

    Ash, please don't apologize for bragging. There is a difference between bragging and acknowledging your accomplishments. And what you did deserves to be acknowledged!!!

    By the way, I LOVE that bowl. It is absolutely adorable!!!!!

  2. You defintely deserve to be proud! I always struggle with eating more than my meal plan, but that isn't even important. What's important is that we listen to what our bodies are telling us!

    Congrats! Put the ED in its place! =)

  3. Thanks ladies for the sweet words of encouragement :) they really mean a lot to me! Oh, and Bryana, the bowl is from Target, in case you were wondering! It makes me smile to eat from it!

  4. Listening your body's needs definately deserves pride! You go girl(: Way to show your eating disorder that you're stronger than it is!
    Keep up the good work!

  5. Aw, like the other girls said you are not bragging - you SHOULD be proud of yourself!
    It's a huge accomplishment. Good job!


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